Screwed up o_O

Ongoing stress = piled up + neverending + routine work, lack of time, low wage, pressure, tension. The only solution to this is my resignation letter, but it's not what I intend to do at the moment... *endures*

Most of our keyframe department consists of newbies; yes, including me, STILL, 'cos afterall I'm not from an animation background, and I've only start doing 2D animation in MY LIFE about 3 months ago. I've yet a LOT to learn in order to deliver a certain number of workfiles within a short timeframe without much or any errors.

Hence it annoys me whenever someone would throw something like "You've been doing this for so long, how can you not know..." to my face regarding about animation. You expect a flawless/'international quality' animation from ME in just after 3 months??? It is a miracle or a genius of a person who could do something he/she's new in without any mistakes!

And it's no surprise the keyframe department is slowing down on progress since 4 'senior' keyframe artists left 1 by 1 when I came in. Obviously, who else to blame on the slowdown except US?

I sorta got into an argument with my editing/background/storyboard head today regarding my errors in my animation workfiles: (1) I forgot to add the 'ripple' in the water (2) A character facing the wrong angle in the first few seconds. And he was questioning me in a manner as if I killed his mom =3=

We argued, since he's asking the same question, & I was explaining to him again & again OTL I admitted it's my mistake, my responsibility to correct it, and I was only talking back 'cos he kept questioning me, and so I replied. But he doesn't seem satisfied & I don't know what else he want.

Then came my department's head, walking by, trying to settle our(that hooligan's) problem maybe 'cos he's been raising his voice continuously in the studio where EVERYONE's working at *SHIET* At one point my dept. head misunderstood something that hooligan said, & instead of settling our problem, he got fired back *digs hole & hides* OTL It's so embarrassing in that moment of 'silence'.. In the end that hooligan somehow got himself frustrated & declared I don't have to change anything & forget about it (DUH???) That's totally inappropriate & not what I expected .__.

He could just tell me straight forward what he wanted me to change in the first place (e.g. how my dept. head did QC with us) & I'll just change it for him, that's it! I have no idea why he'd prefer to put on a show in front of the studio yelling & degrading himself, not to forget wasting time as well. Ho hum.