Keyframe work

My dear almost-dead-blog,

Recently, I am.....
- tired of working on Saturdays, fulltime.
- drained & depressed.
- afraid I couldn't handle doing keyframe in time.

I want to.....
- go on a vacation again (even Genting is fine..)
- watch Transformers for the 3rd time.
- start having more greens than meat.
- finish my FFXII.
- draw.

I want.....
- that Gabranth figurine!! (a.k.a. FFXII: 'The Judge' Play Arts figurine, to be exact) T__T
- a pay raise!
- a new laptop/desktop with higher RAM + DVDRW-ROM.
- a new *cough* single *cough* bishie *cough* collegue sit next to me at work, which will never happen anyways OTL

I began doing keyframe animation about 2 weeks ago by now. I'd to admit, it's more stressful (mostly 'cos of the '30+ files in 7 days' deadline) but somehow it's more fun than doing clean-ups eventually. I don't know HOW my fellow keyframe mates manage to handle that amount of files within that timeframe @_@ Or perhaps I need to speed up my drawing. Sigh. I'm STILL a keyframe newbie, you tards~! >A<*

Another sad thing about work is that 3 collegues are leaving next month, including the one currently sitting next to me. It's kinda ironic when:
- the one who sat next to me (right side) before this guy left last month.
- the one who sat next to me (left side) left the middle of this month (this one's a good news though, for some reason).
- the one who is sitting next to me (right side) now is leaving early next month.
(hey, am I that scary?) ;___;

And again, I'm still a keyframe newbie, you tards! Who's gonna mentor me when the dude next to me leaves?! D:< * is grumpy & illogical*

This is how a malfunctioning brain works

It's that kind of moment again, where my mind wanders off thinking about L I F E . Nothing deep basically (how complicated can my mind go anyway..) , just a feeling of being pathetic and miserable.. and booooorrrreeeeddd........ *yawns* So don't read ahead of this post 'cos it's full of nonsense >8D


My RMIT application only got exempted for 3 subjects, which means I'd still have to do 3 years degree if I'm to go for it next year. While I could only manage to afford for 2 years' overseas study + living expenses... OTL *sigh #1*

I basically can't seem to draw anything decent out lately (or ever since I started WORK..?) Despite I've joined the art group in my office for this year's CF, and also there's the company artbook's submission, & also YUE doujin's submissions as well.. And it's already JULY!!! (which's just 4-5 months left to work on submissions!) ... OTL *sigh #2*

I think I need new friends. Or is work making everyone apart and distanced from each other? =_= *sigh #3*

Or even a boyfriend or a girlfriend (heck, I wouldn't mind to be honest) Matchmake anyone?? .................... WHAT AM I THINKING?!?!?!?!??! >O<;;; OTL *sigh #4* I felt like I'm being ignored too. Am I being too friendly or too scary/cold or et cetera... But then again, maybe I'm just plain bored -> sensitive =_= The ironic part is, the attention that I wasn't seeking/expecting eventually comes to me from time to time.. while the attention that I wanted NEVER came. YEY..~ *sigh #5*

Lunch time they were talking about who're the guys in the office now might suit me (why did I ever tell them that I'm blerdy single..??? ARGH) =A=;
Hey, I DO wish there's one (it helps build up motivation at least) BUT, unfortunately there's NONE. NONE NONE NONE.. OTL *sigh #6*

I shall stop & go to sleep now *crawls to bed*
Btw, TRANSFORMERS WAS AWESOME!!!!! <3<3<3