The five petals. Art.

It's like flowers, it's beautiful while it blossoms, and in time it eventually withers away.

I fail to see the symbolism of flowers as a gift to a loved one; especially roses – it dies fast, that’s why they’re so prized when they're beautifully fresh and delicate. Hahah, but this is just my personal POV & preference. Flowers are indeed beautiful (esp. given from someone special), but that's just it. It dies, & down the garbage bin it goes - not being able to keep it.

↑ Above sketch - P3's Akihiko giving carnations to Minato (super unlike Akihiko, I know): This might not be the right way to hold flowers, & not to forget the wrong hand angles *ack* My hand drawing is degrading.

Despite what I'm supposed to accomplish by this week, I started P4. Naming my hero 'Kaji' (no not after the BM word). I like the concept of putting on glasses inside the TV world. Hawt ♥

Merdeka. District 9

Despite some people are saying.. why celebrate Merdeka when democracy is dead. Ah phooey, it's a 3 days holiday this weekend so stop being politically emo & just celebrate it already! HAPPY 52nd BIRTHDAY, MALAYSIA!

Though yours truly is spending the moment as how she usually pass her weekends at home, either on her bed reading/sleeping or in front of the PC drawing/watching vids/reading random stuff online.

I was too bored... & too reluctant to start sketching on a storyboard for submission.

District 9
My first impression before I actually saw the movie was – NieA_7. Too lazy to explain why.
The idea of this movie was discrimination against aliens who took refuge on earth. Prolly it’s about time someone does a reverse plot of the usual aliens invading earth by attacking/eating/infecting/experimenting humans. District 9 is the other way round; yes even eating aliens.
What I’m most fond of this movie is the depiction of the main human protagonist, Wikus from an ordinary, hopeful, working husband into a deranged, infected survivor against his own organization. This transition simultaneously conveys Wikus’ anguish & dismay of what’s happening to him. I hated him for his egocentric & prejudiced personality throughout the show, & yet I wouldn’t want this character to fail. Sure, that scene where he turned back for Christopher & asked him to run ahead were cheesy & cliché somewhat, but IMO it’s all done in a splendid outcome. And what’s the other best thing about this movie? All hateable evil villains gets what they deserved ♥ (the ‘watermelon burst’ effects are exciting yes?)

It's that feeling again, broken & lost for words. I didn't mean to be accusive nor skeptical. Yes, I don't understand. Yes, I couldn't handle. Yes, you're damn right. Because I'm like a one-sided wing that keeps flying in circles on the ground - I guess that's how things are between us.

Coraline. Art. Random rants.

Oh my twitchy witchy girl, I think you are so nice, I give you bowls of porridge, & I give you bowls of ice cream, I give you lots of kisses, & I give you lots of hugs, but I never give you sandwiches with bugs in. - Coraline

I love Coraline. There's an immense respect I had for stop-motion animation, and Coraline is beautiful, even the dull colour hues in the 'real world' are interesting to feast your eyes on.

Overall the story gives an eerie feeling of having an alternate reality seperated by a small mysterious door at a corner of your living room - yesh, I love alternate realities, alternate dimensions, alternate personalities, alternate outcomes, alternate whatever there is. And a part of this story's moral basically tells no matter how sucky your current reality is, it IS always the better one; as long you're willing to try & look at it in a different, positive point of view & give it another chance to make it better. I'm just disappointed with the idea of the 'belman' controlling everything in the 'other world' & desperately needing someone to love. Probably 'cos I was expecting something more bizarre than that. Thanks Tara for the lend! ♥

You know when you're asked an important question - be it trouble-wise, or relationship-wise kinda situation - somewhere in your mind, you know the answer, yet you couldn't put it all into words to tell it. THIS, is one of my flaws.

And now, I couldn't properly describe how I've been lately, so here's a list in point form.. 'cos I CAN:
• I dislike untrue news about me. Stop overreacting in defining people's actions, grow up.
• I wasn't really going after how high my increment will be. As long there is, in addition to the backlogged 4-5 months, which my salary should've been reviewed; I'm fine.
• I felt useless when I realised someone else could do something (perfectly) while I couldn't when I tried. I wasn't really worth the time afterall even as a friend.
• I am always the one who ask. I never get one in return. Someone else does. Simple things like this could crush my ego in a second. And it's been crushed several times so far.
• Wanted to walk out of office & head to the stairs by the elevators to cry during lunch today, I didn't. I just needed somewhere quiet & alone that's not my work desk.
• Consulted with Arty on a part of my problem, & bugga you do cheer me up & enlighten me on some things. It just hit the spot & you understood/expected what I'm trying to say even in just msn chat. You're too kind T_T (mampuih aku kalo u know I say this here lol TSA, YOU DON'T GO TELL HIM THIS OK!)
• I love midnights, and people might say I'm a weirdo for finding sitting in my kitchen downstairs at 2-3am sipping cold honey-lemon or snacking quietly while staring blankly at the dark living room IS mind-relaxing... (well that's one of the things I like doing during midnights). Though I must force myself to sleep EARLY... sigh.

Art, meme & quotes

Sara (Ethereal)
A little practice to procrastinate from doing something I dislike doing. Shit, it's already the end of Sunday. I did mention I was planning to continue Ethereal chapters online, sorry I lied. I'm trying to get my inspirations back rather than just coughing out head/bust-shot sketches.

100 Truths Meme - tagged by Tsa. It's 100 uninteresting truths, I promise.
I still owe Pea the 25 Random Things meme some time ago. Yes I still remember it, and I still haven't complete all twenty five YET. I'm that clueless about myself..;;;

Here's a random couple of favourite game quotes I roughly remembered, hence I googled & managed to dig 'em out:

Music is a mysterious thing. Sometimes it makes people remember things they do not expect. Many thoughts, feelings, memories... things almost forgotten... Regardless of whether the listener desires to remember or not.
- Citan (Xenogears)
Citan was telling this to Fei in the beginning of the game, while listening to a jukebox which eventually broke down thereafter. This sentence remained something memorable to me for how true it is during that time.

Time is cruel. It just keep moving on & on, & before you know it, we all just look like adults. Got to do this, got to do that. Sooner or later it all gets left behind somewhere... All the pains & dreams when you were a kid.
- Baofu (Persona 2)
Baofu would tell you this all of a sudden (I forgot which part of that story was at) when you talk to him in the Subway Tunnel. Same goes to Katsuya. Yes, I could relate to this quote now at least.

And here's a fav from season 5 of 24! ♥

Kim: So how have you been doing?
Chloe: This morning I woke up with a guy in my bed that I doubt I'm ever going to see again... & one of my best friend just died in front of me. So I guess, not that great.

In your face, Kim! Gotta love Chloe's technical way of socialising. Despite Tony's major absence in this season (& next season *cries*), Bill Buchanan is my new fav just 'cos he's such a stiff! (& seems like he always takes the fall for someone & has no hard feelings for it lol) ♥

No need for words

Thoughts that can't be conveyed through words; yeah why not just plug in & listen then. Simple. WRONG! Reality doesn't work that way! *throws in pessimistic vibes like a villain*

It's what I ended up doing by looping Fyrsta (Sigur Rós) - I had to mention that the opening of this track is Silent Hill-ish, but in an instant later it drops in a serenely tune ♥ Both are meant to be males, but somehow.. well, I dunno, they turned feminine as I progress through this.... (in other words, I failed) Pardon my lack of better ideas & creativity, it's another attempt to draw something out, at least. My capability is seriously getting rustier from being already rusted bajillion years agoooo. Shame on me.

Ever since the Cameron trip, I've been so restless. Does it have anything to do with it in the first place anyway..? =_= I love my bed. Wanted to rant about the movies I've seen recently & some random thoughts that I (as usual) failed to speak out clearly, etc. maybe I should read more books with only words instead of pictures to improve my vocabulary <--- not making any sense. YARGH. It means it's time for bed... *crawls to lovely comfy bed*

Thoughts

Without this talent, though amateur & seemingly unimportant; I'd think my life is less meaningful. I'm just blabbing.

Some web pimpage:
• IKEA Go Clean Your Room Contest
Prize: RM2000 vouchers - by submitting a photo or video of your room/store/kitchen and get your buddies & relatives to vote like crazy.

• IKEA Love the Earth
As the title says.

• Star Wars I Like
A die-hard Star Wars fan's blog about reviews on Star Wars collectable figurines, models, shops, etc. And it's catered almost daily and comprehensively (with photos).

At times I felt I misunderstood the whole agenda. I was naive. I am a pessimist in this subject. In the end, I'm a serious & sensitive person. People's actions means a lot to me. I can't deny that fact no matter how silly or ignorant I acted. And with doubt comes paranoia. Conclusion, I think it's time I should back away and just take it all as a big joke before I make a fool of myself further. I apologise for any offense or mistakes.

Walking

...with a knee-high boots.
I'd very much love to own a pair & try that, but it's so friggin' hot & impractical to do so here. I think I did an angle mistake. Or not. Just something random.

Someone, thank you for rummaging through my purse! Although I don't approve that (and you just gotta see that horrible fugly ol' photo of MEEE) You accompanied me for a long while after work so I really appreciate that alot. And so, I discovered my driving license has expired since last December!!! Petrified. IAMSUCHADUMBASS. So quickly found a way to renew it online. Done and I received the renewed license today. Long live online services ♥

I also discovered something cute about our RM5 and RM10 notes from my ex-colleagues ^^;

It's real fun to draw when you have the right mood + idea + music. (Pea, I know, epic art, but not yet--! ToT;) Hence I broke my own promise to sleep earlier tonight.

What it feels like-

-And that is why I despise it.

Non-bishounen

Those who'd think I draw only bishounens - you're WRONG...! I just don't draw old or muscular people cos I don't know how to & I wouldn't enjoy doing so.

KOF2002:UM (mostly for the sake of HIROAKI's ART ♥) Am sad they replaced K9999 for a Tetsuya Nomura-like bishounen called "Nameless". For once I'm against a bishounen replacing a non-bishounen character. Even though he's a carbon copy of Tetsuo frm Akira (prolly that's why he's removed in this remake due copyright issues), I'm fond of his impulsive moves & grin. I remember my friend questions my taste for liking K9999 back in 2001. Hay, he's actually cool okaaay.

My shoulder/back hurts again. Aaah *whines*

And she sighs. And sighs. And sighs....

I wasn't even sure if this should be depressing or pleasant..... If there's no way to cry, why not just improvise it. Of course, this is illogical. Sigh.

Star Trek. Kinda super brief thoughts:
• Zachary Quinto FTW! ♥
• Spock and Uhura is like a big question mark. What the hell.
• Kirk actor (sorry I forgot who's the actor) has very pretty eyes.
• Skinny girls is unattractive. Really.
• Young Kirk speeding with the car and ended up at the end of a cliff is like a big waste of film time. Why didn't they just save it for the deleted scenes..
• I like the death scenes. Especially the part the Romulan guy got blasted upwards at the driller thing, and the red suit guy who got instantly roasted at the bottom of the driller. Aww...
• Ah.. I thought the enemy would have a bigger or more complex agenda.....
• Overall it's a OK for me.
- end -

I wanna go for Angels & Demons.
I want a short vacation. August is just too far away.
Someone, yes you have a point I should've agreed to go with you for the concert in Singapore this weekend. But nothing can be done now except me emoing over a wasted opportunity to go for a vacation, which I badly need now... CEH. AS IF YOU WOULD GO. Tipu la.

Sighs. Listens to sad piano scores.
I want a mc for tomorrow.... *mumbles*

I'm not supposed to be doing this

That's a lollipop btw. There's nothing suggestive. Nope nope nope.
See, Pea? I DO draw something lately :D Though this mostly happens only when I'm unwilling to do something else which's...

I'm supposed to be doing work FFS!

I'm mentally stressed. I am. I get tired easily and early lately.
Yet I have to do this damn blog template AGAIN. I SUCK.

I'm aware there's so much anger that I kept to myself because I don't like whining in RL. That's one purpose of having a blog virtually. And you'd think to just cry it all out and be done with it is easy; it's NOT (at least for me). I couldn't. I'm that STUBBORN and EGOTISTICAL.

Btw
DEVIL SUMMONER 2 IS OUT! I'VE BEEN WAITING. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH

KOF related. Fanart. Random.

Elisabeth Blanctorche is my other favorite female KOF character. 'Cos I just *love* equestrian outfits. Above sketch contains lotsa perspective/detail errors which I DO care but failed to fix it <--- lame excuse.

• I wish it is now July.
• I am happy there's Elisabeth & Mature addition exclusively for the home console of KOFXII.
• But I certainly prefer their previous costume design (they just look so bland & normal now).
• Still, I was hoping there is K'.
• Watching pixelised, blurred gameplay videos on youtube is just fun.
• And I was supposed to be doing work - I didn't.
• Iori is droolsome ♥

My new love is Ben & Jerry's. I would now think RM26 for a pint is worth it; I must be crazy. Certainly not keepable at home. Considering that my chocolate stash in the fridge are majorly being raided by my beloved 2nd bro whenever he's here.

On work related: It's already passed my 6th month probation and currently on my 9th month here. I don't mean to be 'calculative', but... WHEN IS MY PAY GONNA BE REVISED, BOSSES?

Random blab...

There's time my mind go thinking how envious am I towards someone's bliss. And I would then think what a failure I am - the injustice and irony, but it's reality afterall. Just a temporary thought; I just felt like whining alittle. IGNORE THIS.


I can't draw anything right lately except just headshots T___T

Been 'boiling' episodes of 24 lately, and currently on season 3 (Zachary Quinto! ♥) Ah btw, my fav character has to be Tony Almeida :D I don't know why.. *shrugs*

And.. WHERE THE FOOK DID THIS POP-UP AD COMES FROM??? =__=

Sigh time passes fast......

Sketch post + some jiwang songs

Drawing guys smoking is enjoyable :D But this looks abit ghey... I miss reading some BL *coughs*

Here's some lagu jiwang that have been looping on my player lately:


Ending theme from The Sky Crawlers. I don't understand 90% of what the lyric's about (there's always my own imagination), but the tune and Ayaka's voice itself are enough to love this song. I've been feeling in the mood to watch a slow anime, and my AD got this, so I thought why not give it a go. So about the movie: Overall it's decent, odd and sad, I wasn't expecting a hidden agenda behind the "Kildren". But I still don't get it why they exist. Though it's slow, it wasn't boring IMO.


Great great great song to listen while you're laying on your bed; about to sleep - It's like a romantic lullaby. Too bad I don't have this on my handphone (a.k.a. mp3 player) yet - Not that I need any help to sleep lately..... Much thanks to someone for recommending me this (and also a few other memorable songs as well).

Sketch post

I've just seen this veteran stand-up comedian being interviewed, "What does laughter means to you?". Although I could barely remember exactly what he replied, but what he said in the end touched me. Thank you for reminding me that.

Happy Belated Birthday to Miaow! ♥ (18th Apr)
Confessions of a Shopaholic was actually good. Enjoyed both dinner & movie, absolutely. Too bad our appetite acts before our brain does, so we failed to take photos of what we ate. Har har..... There's always next time! >8D

RE5 Sheva fanart + MEME

Okays, my 1st take on Resident Evil 5's Sheva Alomar. With ref of course. Click image link below to view the full size.

MEME tagged by Pea.

[1] Make a list of 5 things you can see right now without getting up.
1. DELL lcd monitor
2. A corkboard of various stick-it notesm, & small pinups (David Archuleta cutout frm newspaper, Luffy, "Bow Wow" the SuiSui CD cover art done by Pea, "Thanks" art by rem frm purchase of Aim for Alice).
3. Mosquito racket
4. Chrono Cross OST box
5. Pile of used recycled paper on desk

[2] How do you style your hair?
As long my bangs are looking neat.

[3] What are you wearing now?
Sussan pajamas.

[4] If you could have any other talents, what would they be?
Playing the guitar, sing, sociable (lol not sure if the last one counts) 'cos I suck in all these.

[5] Do you nap a lot?
Like once in a blue moon.

[6] Who was the last person you hugged?
Should be Lynling!

[7] What's your current fandom/obsession/addiction?
David Archuleta, Resident Evil 5

[8] What was the last thing you ate today?
Dinner with various dishes (asam steamed fish, sesame chicken, duno what vege, duno what soup with taufu, rice).

[9] What was the last text you received?
"I have to sleep liao, good night, sweet dreams" <--- rough memory since I don't keep MSN history, but it's the usual pattern.

[10] What websites do you always visit when you go online?
Neatorama, David Archuleta Fanblast, Archuleta Avenue Malaysia, Cinemassacre.com, LJ

[11] What was the last thing(s) you bought?
2 chocolate chip cookie biscuit packs, and 1 instant cup noodle from 7-11

[12] What are you listening to right now?
Chrono Cross OST Disc 1

[13] What do you think about before you go to bed at night?
"I'm sleeping late AGAIN", "Better wake up earlier tomorrow", "I want holidays...", "Is it weekend yet?"

[14] What is your favorite food?
KFC, McD, Pasta carbonara with very creamy + mushroomie ♥, dark chocolates, oats + Milo, toasted butter with or w/o peanut butter, curry, tom yam, fried mushroom, mousse cakes, alooot more *o*♥

[15] What is your favorite weather, and why?
Cloudy, windy, light rain days.

[16] What else apart from features do you like in the opposite sex?
Should be same as what Pea described lol. Okay.... in own words: Optimistic/having faith in himself, gentlemen, witty, generous, sociable ('cos yours truly is NOT lol), has own passion doing something productive (art, writing, photography, study, music, etc.), and with that, of course comes Dedication. BUT WELL, who (female) wouldn't want a soulmate with these kinds of qualities, aye?

[17] How is your soul today?
There's the word "tired" and "shoulder/back pains" popping in my head permanently. Glad mom returned home from her 3 weeks stay in Melbourne. I'm feeling alright for the day.

[18] What is the one thing that you wish for to come true?
Now that's unfair, at least usually there's THREE wishes??? For now, I'd REAAAAALLY hope to meet David Archuleta in person ;___;

So I finished RE5 + art

The domain tisubox.net has just been revived & renewed! Thanks to Shyu! YAY! ^3^

On RE5
Poor Wesker. I didn't expect that coming. And I thought Josh was............. ah nvm. Though IMO, overall RE5's difficulty is easier than RE4's. Am I satisfied with the tending? Not really. Would I replay it? Definitely.

RE: Darkside Chronicles for the Wii. OMFGLEONLOOKSOCUUNNNNN *insert fangirl scream* DAMN YOU CAPCOOOOMMMMM~~~!!!!! *shakes fist* A RE2 remake is one of my gaming wishlist (another has to be Vagrant Story by Square). And now of all 3 consoles, it has to be a WII. Orz...

While taking a short break frm RE5, here's some art dump (100 theme art meme, well just 3 of it actually...) :

Click image link to view.

I checked on my visitor stats recently, and I found there's aloooooot that came from the search keyword of "apollo god". HMMM. I didn't thought of that as a popular search, and I think I've only mentioned ONCE about Apollo in my blog, which is Apollo from Saint Seiya, NOT the Olympian Sun God myth >_>

Fabius' Crib. WoW screenies.

My first post for the year 2009! I've been neglecting this blog. Again. And again.

From this day onwards, I'll be posting art on FABIUS' CRIB (YUE's blog) instead. So any art will be redirected to there. You can also view my fellow groupmate's art too! ;D

Oh yes, some WoW screenies:

One reason for getting the exalted reputation with the Kalu'ak tribe. It could slide! ♥

Lucky SOBs. Red, blue and green drakes in 1.
On King Ymiron's throne. This was an interesting party to run with ^^

Sideways mammoth. Apparently there's a spot you could do this outside of the Horde quarters in Dalaran?

I'm pausing WoW temporarily. While waiting for the release of RE5, I'm replaying RE4. Gosh, whenever I play this game, I'd think- Leon is sosososoooo dang sexxay! XD~ (and I kept getting him decapitated/neck broken/killed...). Yes I know it's weird to drool over a fictional video game character but what diff does it make if it's a celebrity instead, I still wouldn't get to touch him la! And to hell with RE: Degeneration, Leon belongs to Ada! #__# <--- Leon x Ada fan.

Comic Fiesta 2008: my lewtz :D

It's not much. Has yet to go through all of them, but I did less doujin shopping this year I think. Spent approx. RM154, since I've forgotten the price of some of the books. As usual, my brain was half-awake (or quarter) throughout both CF days due to the lack of sleep for the entire week before +_+

The venue for this year's CF is great; wide, more spacious, comfy chair, nice air-conditioning, nice neighbours (Daruma), and Sunway Pyramid convention center is just about 25 mins away from my house. The only drawback was the entrance fee, but I wouldn't complain since the venue is great. And it's a great thing they've decided to disallow cosplay photography within the doujin booths on the 2nd day.

Speaking of Daruma, it's such a surprise to see Santa, Andy, and KF/Chopstick again! (para-para senpai sekalian~!) And they're just next door neighbours - Such coincidence desu! ^^ Also long-time-see-kawan Lily! Lynling! (congrats for Chocofan & FMA sold-out sales & prize winner!!) Amber, Miaka, Yogi, Mel, Ze Ming, Constance, Ah Yap, Apai, Njay, KOK LEE, etc etc~~ <3<3

Now YUE #7! I must post some shots of it (should've pimp this before CF but oh well):


Sales wasn't bad, I'm personally happy with it but it'd be mostly thanks to Pea! (and sorry for being so mou yung in hard selling orz..) And next year would be our YUE's 10th year anniversary~ Yup, TEN YEARS! TT_TT We'll see what we could cook up for next year! :3

Art post. Tired. WotLK.

It's been very tiring lately, and that's most probably because I've never wasn't exercising much. I have a basic treadmill at home which I usually run on about 10mins (WELL, BETTER THAN NOTHING RIGHT) ... Orz.
Work isn't getting any lesser. And it's frustrating to leave work early because of the jam nowadays. But still, the working environment here beats my previous job by a mile. IF ONLY eating there wasn't sh!t expensive......

Art post:
Art commissioned by Crimson Domingo @ y! Gallery, her original character: Sasha from her Supernatural fan stories (thank you~!) I realised I enjoyed CGing more with this style ^^

WoW rant:
Got my WotLK expansion and also reactivated my account from the hype of it (oh noes). I really really need to do a research on the new paladin talent tree. DAMN. I'm currently putting my BE pally on hold in Aman Thul's server. And starting a new Draenei pally on Proudmoore instead *waves to Miaow* (agh I've got a super duper long way to go again orz..) I love pallies. I'm abandoning my hunter already ^^;

Ah not to forget Comic Fiesta is just around the corner. AGAIN! It's so frighteningly SOON! T____T *haven't start on anything yet* So basically I NEED to do: (1) doujin (2) 1 more commission that I've been dragging (wwaahhhh soooo sorry T_T).
On the other hand, I WANT to do: (1) play WoW (2) play SH5. YES. PLAY PLAY PLAY.

I even declined to go to a bar (Luna Bar; which I actually like) in order to spend some time in WoW tonight (sorry..) YES I'M SO HOPELESS...! Cause in the end my fun-o-meter weights WoW higher than anything else at the moment... Har har har... *shot*

New titles to look forward to!

There're still lotsa reasons to have my PS2 back from my 2nd bro, OR even getting a brand new PS2 slim (if my current old, fat PS2 decided to die on me).

Devil Summoner: Raidou Kuzunoha vs. The King of Abaddon (PS2)
Moar Raidou~!!! >8D Yum!

Persona 4 (PS2)
Wth, I'm not even finish with P3 yet. Orz. But I like the concept of eyeglasses... Hee hee..

Some other PS2 titles that are great but I haven't had a chance to play are Okami, Shadow Heart 2/3, Digital Devil Saga 1/2, and 1 more I just forgot what the title is...
Not to forget I haven't even finish with a number of games (Rhapsodia, P3, etc.)

King of Fighters XII
For the PS3! OMFG. Iori FINALLY has a new costume! Wha?! Exposed lower waist detected! HAWTNESS! (is it unhealthy to drool over a pixelised character) >A<;

So many games, so little time. It's so sad. Can I just live with a part-time job? Of course not! Sigh. I miss my school days for this. Ahhh emo doodle of girly men >D

There, I procrastinated my entire Saturday with watching IRONMAN, drinking 3-in-1 coffee by spoon, looking at game videos, downloading Silent Hill Zero tracks, etc. WHERE I SHOULD BE DOING MY WORK INSTEAD (brought home work to rush on for Monday & Tuesday's deadlines) Orz

Letter of Resignation. Art. Bunraku

Just printed out my resignation letter, and I got myself another job! ^o^ So it's 'throw letter and face the questionnaires day' tomorrow! XD *gulps* And then there's a 30 days period before I get to leave....... or more? OTL -Never know what excuses would come up.. OR they'd rather terminate me immediately..? *dreams*

There's a few reasons why I'd love to quit my current job, even though it's been only my 3rd month currently. The fact that most of the former staff has left could explain it in a nutshell, and the dreaded feeling I have whenever I woke up to work is enough to tell myself that I'm not happy with this job and the working environment (bosses arguing with each other frm time to time for petty matters as I've witnessed) What I had in mind whenever I think of them is: Ignorant humans. Nuff said. Though I mentioned 'a few', I could go on alot when it comes to complaining.. so I'd better not *grumpy* =_+

Art post!

This is Asuka Yoshimoto, 2nd commission piece for y0sh1r0 and I'm glad he likes it! ^w^ It's been awhile since I drew anything...! Also it's my first time drawing on my new desktop [Luffy 2.0]! (frm 14" screen to 22" screen) *_*;

Also, while wiki-ing on Vocaloid for Gackpoid, I just discovered that Gackt's gonna be in a movie called BUNRAKU, alongside with Josh Hartnett, Demi Moore, and Ron Perlman (Hellboy)! OW MAI GAWD. No kidding. Gakuto going for western exposure?? Not sure with the director though; I read from a IMDB board post mentioning that the director himself went to Japan to invite Gackt for the role in a gracious way that he just couldn't refuse it (OF COURSE you won't refuse it dude!) True or not, I'm definitely excited about it!! XDD 2009!

Some game rants, Art post, David A - Angels

I miss my PS2. I also miss the days I get to enjoy playing RPGs all day long on my PS1 without much worries (homeworks: 3/4 were copied, exams: 2 hours of study perday, school curriculum activies: 98% ponteng).

Final Fantasy VII was my first RPG game; that's the reason why my bro got our PS1. Wild Arms or Breath of Fire III were my 2nd/3rd RPG game. Suikoden I & II, Xenogears came later. Resident Evil 3 was my first survival horror game thanks to a friend of mine who 'forced' me to play it (I was scared of playing RE games, but not till I actually play it! >8D) King of Fighters '96 was my first fighting game on the PS1. As for PS2, my first RPG game was Final Fantasy X. First survival horror was Silent Hill 2, first action adventure was Devil May Cry. And the rest I lost count.

My first PS3 game is Devil May Cry 4! ^o^ Finally got it yesterday at Summit after going for Street Kings with Ash (then rushing back home for American Idol 7 on 8TV). The shop dude was giggling at the way I took out my money (kept my monies at separate places: wallet, pants & bag pocket - don't ask me why) #_# And it's NOT cheap okay? The only other thing I'm willing to pay RM200 or above are books or a hair makeover (like once a year?) =A=

Art post:

A commission from y0sh1r0 on his OC, Takayuki. Here's only the lineart of it. Finally I have some art to post...!

David Archuleta - Angels



David performing "Angels" by Robbie Williams on his Top 8 Inspirational Songs Week. Somehow it's expected he'd sing this song @_@ "Despite what you're going through, there's always a light in the end of the tunnel". You go, boy! His live performance was better than his studio version IMO 'cos I *LOVE* how he ends his song in the performance <3 >83

Back to 'measure land'..!

I'm back on job hunting. Sigh. It's upsetting when dreams and ambitions fall victims to money & time. At least they learned their lessons, and we get some of the experience in this field. And no, we won't give up yet.

At the moment I'll just need to get a job for a steady income. But my portfolio... OTL I'm still contemplating whether to cancel my Vergil preorder or not since that company hasn't receive their stock yet. But I wanted it so bad T__T *lame*

Since I had a sudden amount of free time (sigh) I get to finish my Phoenix Wright (Justice for All) game where I'd previously abandoned in the middle of the last case. And now I'm in the 2nd case of the 3rd game (Trials & Tribulations).
Young Phoenix is SO ADORABLE ISOWANNAGLOMPHIM~!!! -despite him being a wimpy guy then XD *abuses the Gyakuten Saiban Encyclopedia* And... I THOUGHT Ron Delite is a female character..??? @_@ (before I play the 3rd game) Eeehhh...

Speaking of wimpy guys, in RL, it's irritating when I see/meet/know one. I can't believe how could a 28-29 years old guy thinks like a 16-18 years old.. Sometimes even a 16 year old boy could think even MORE POSITIVE than him. It's rude to talk rough to a person, but I couldn't help it especially whenever I see him behaving/thinking so pessimistically...! I don't know how he plan to live on with his next 50 years of life in the future with a weak mind & spirit like that =3=* OH BOY. Hence, I wasted a few minutes of my life with this paragraph...

Orz

Happy CNY!

GONG XI FA CAI!!! HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

Wishing everyone a joyous & harmonious year ahead! Anyone has any ang pow to spare, TELL ME. Ohohoho~ *shot*

I was watching Brotherhood of the Wolf on CNY eve. It's a movie directed by Christophe Gans years before he did Silent Hill. And it's a movie loosely based on the historical legend of the 'Beast of Gevaudan'. IMO, it's alooooooooooooot better than Romasanta (which's another movie based on the same legend) 'cos overall, IT WASN'T BORING; and BotW was alot more entertaining even though it's odd to find the characters throwing martial art actions around (a'la Matrix slow-mo sequences) during the 18th century France XD But I LOVE this movie. The plot's a little confusing, super-slow at times, but I still find myself entertained & looking forward to what the main protagonist's gonna do next. Definitely a keep! >w<

While enjoying my CNY holidays, I need to redo my comic submission since it's been rejected (!!!) But it's no surprise since it's crappy T_T I just lack the skills & in desperate need to IMPROVE.. or I'll be kicking my ass out of the company in no time! *despairs* OTL In fact, I hate my 1st story... It's a last minute thought of story. But I won't blame it on that except for my own flawed skills. Sigh.
Never ever give up. Yes. But time is being cruel to me ;___; (it's HOLIDAY for god's sake, I wanna go for a VACATION) T______T So I just hope I could produce something more decent out enough before going to Melaka on Sunday with my ex-ex-colleagues... >_<

I'm slow by nature. Orz

I tried rushing for CF'07 art competition deadline, but I COULDN'T in the end.... OTL
Below: A cropped part from the page I did.
Character: Cyril Rage (C) creator unknown. He's not my OC.

Sigh sigh sigh..... At least I tried making a 'proper' comic page T_T SIGH. I'm so disappointed with myself.

CF2007 is just next Saturday. OH NOES..... OTL OTL OTL *wants to be in a coma till January*

Sketches. PSP?

Popped by Summit with Mel after work to get her NDS lite. Ended up waiting for over an hour to get things done (fix screen, pick games, upload games, PSP Q&A's) because that small shop was super packed with humans one after another, family after family.. *hasn't had breakfast, lunch & was looking forward for dinner* OTL

But another new staff was nice to let us try on his Monster Hunter 2 (he was rambling about it on & on while adjusting & fixing the screen protector unto Mel's NDSL) & *squee* tried Silent Hill Origins with his phat PSP while waiting. Though it's hard & distracting to just play any games among that crowd of humans...;;; Guh.

I'm gonna go get my PSP later today with 2nd bro! ^o^ Should I get ori SH:O??? >w< >w< >w<;;; But that shop doesn't have it yet atm............ duh.

Dumps:
Original - Ethereal: 'Omega'
Fanart - Dynasty Warriors 5: Gan Ning & Ling Tong
Fanart - Persona 3: Akihiko Sanada

Couldn't draw anything.

I've been trying to draw something since 11pm till NOW.. (4.12 am) & yet, I'VE DONE NOTHING STILL...!! OTL OTL OTL

It's meant for my company's yearly artbook, a compilation of (almost) every staff's illustration, and this year they're making it full colour, A4! *despairs* Deadline's this coming Saturday.. wait, does this mean this Saturday we've gotta work AS WELL??? Oh geez... *is overworked & underpaid* (they're slowly sucking our personal life away!)

Frankly, I don't even feel like attending this year's CF. It's far, it's gonna be tiring, and mostly it's gonna be boring as well (attend the booth the whole day, duh?) & then there's work the very next day! Does this sound FUN?? NO. Not anymore =_= even though it's a 'once a year' thing. Maybe I'm just being pessimistic. But seriously, I just hope to get more rest.

Art post:
Persona 3 - Junpei x Hero, a la Kazuma Kaneko style (the bottom eyelashes) XD
Sorry, it's a little BL/gay. Hope it doesn't scare anyone away


It's such a good weather to sleep!! (rain drizzling) >w< I'm taking a day off from work today though *glee* Hope to settle what I'm supposed to do, and hopefully finish my submission for DOODLE a.k.a. company's artbook as well OTL

Work that goes down the drain. Some art post.

Been almost a week I did not touch my Persona 3 since my PS2 broke down AGAIN for the 4th or 5th time & sent it for repair AGAIN *despairs* Someone sponsor me a new PS2...? ;__; I'm already reserving $$$ for a PSP later this month or maybe only after I finish my Persona 3. I'm so eager to meet Koromaru! >w< Work:
After few months on this job, it's already in the process of eating my personal life AWAY. Mon-Sat, 10am-8/9pm all goes to work, the remaining time & Sundays are the only time I get to BE AT HOME & do whatever I want (which I spent 3/4 of it sleeping 'cos I'm SO FRIGGIN' TIRED by the end of the week).

I was working on one file for the entire day today, a task given by a senior. And it's my first time working on this new character for this upcoming new series; so I know nuts about this new character (action, behaviour, etc.) as well as this 'advance super-smooth animation technique' that we gotta use for this iNtErNaTiOnAl cartoon. Thus I: draw, redraw, adjust, draw, "it doesn't look right" - so continue drawing, director came by & giving hints that it's an urgent file - OKAY, draw, think, draw, I mainly got myself frustrated over a simple animation (yes, it's just only a simple animation actually, look how SLOW & WORTHLESS I am!), boss also came by urging me to finish it - OKAY, and so I kept working on it till over 9pm, however in the end, my seniors found out that the animation I was working on is actually NOT NEEDED.

Apparently my director finally check that animation scene with the VO at the end of the day and found out it's unnecessary for that action.

OTL!!!

Oh yes, they should've check with the VO timing before handing me that task in the first place. Sigh. You guys are SO kind...! *shakes fist*
My collegue, ZeMing gave me a belated present today, which really surprised me! I did not expect he'd take my joke ("yes it's my bday, where's my present?" thingy) seriously. Gomen gomen >A< *guilty* But thank yoU!! It's a decorative candle(?) I don't know if I could actually light it... but it'll be a waste if I don't light it.. Though it'll burn away those decorative stuff in it if I do.. owO; Art dump:

Persona 3 fanart - Akihiko Sanada (above). Below are OCs unless stated otherwise.